Rare Disease Day

Today was Rare Disease Day. I woke up with notes in my email box reminding me that this was the big day. Oh, yeah. I guess I should say something about it on the blog, but what? I mean, I do have a rare disease, but why should anyone else care about it?

rare disease dayI spent most of the day thinking about that. I worked on the loom (weaving is right around the corner!), cleaned the house, cooked a yummy dinner, and pondered the relevance of rare diseases throughout the day. For a while in the late afternoon I almost started writing, but ended up knitting instead. Now it is evening and I think that I might be there.

You see, anyone dealing with a chronic condition eventually comes to terms with their altered life. Grace under fire becomes the status quo. We deal. We lean in. Maybe the big success of the day was taking a shower or getting dinner cooked, but by golly we did it!!

If you have a rare disease, it is a little harder yet. People have never heard of your condition. Your doctor may have never treated another person with your disease before. Your friends and family sometimes suspect that you might be an attention-seeking hypochondriac. You wander the internet looking for answers. There is little research being done for your disease because so few people are impacted by new drugs or treatments. In a world with finite funding for medical research it makes better sense to put the money where the most patients are: cancer, diabetes, heart disease, asthma. I get it.

The purpose of Rare Disease Day is to shine a little light on the many, many conditions that are classified as “rare”. It is also a campaign to raise some awareness about the human impact of being a patient with one of these conditions. To be frank, it kind of sucks!

stuff
Fat swollen fingers with thick stiff skin are part of my condition. On this day I accidentally triggered a Raynaud’s attack that cut off the circulation to one of my fingers. 

You see, rare diseases are also referred to as “orphan diseases”. You do feel like an orphan. Alone, alone, all alone. I’m lucky to be hooked up with other people who share my condition, but that is because I live in a large metropolitan area. I have systemic sclerosis*, which is considered the most severe of the diseases in rheumatology. There are only 100,000 of us in the United States (which, if my math is right, is 1 in 50,000 Americans), so if you live in a small town chances are you will never find another person who has the same illness that you do. I am lucky.  I belong to a support group and have found online resources, the most important of these being you people who take the time to read my blog.

Here is what I decided is the most important message that I should put out on this day set aside for me and all the many, many other people who deal with a condition/illness that no one has ever heard of before. If someone says, “I have (crazy-ass disease you’ve never heard of before)”, don’t say, “I’ve never heard of that!” in a dismissive manner as you turn away. Say instead, “What is that?”  Invite the person that you are talking with to teach you about their unusual condition. Really, it will mean the world to them.

They will feel less like an orphan if you do.

*Systemic sclerosis, which is serious form of scleroderma, is an incurable, disabling, and progressive autoimmune disease that causes inflammation and scarring of the connective tissue of the skin, blood vessels and internal organs. It is often fatal, but in recent years the survival numbers have improved due to new therapies (I love my immunosuppressants!). Currently there is no drug to directly treat systemic sclerosis but there are drugs and treatment strategies on the way. Right now there is a bill in Congress to fund scleroderma research called the Scleroderma and Fibrosis Research Enhancement Act, H.R. 3666.

Rocking the Week #1

This is so annoying: here we are at the end of another week and I have NO finished objects to show off. How can this be? The house is littered with projects that I have started or are planning to start soon… I tell myself that I’m just organizing and it will all come together soon. There’s no reason why I can’t have more than one knitting project cast on, right? As long as I’m in single digits I don’t have a problem! Seriously, that is a true statement: ask any knitter.  I am reading books like crazy. Lots is going on, but I’m struggling to put together one theme that would be suitable for a blog post.

So, why don’t I just show you my week? Really, it will be fun. Here are all the moments of the week that prompted me to pull out the camera.

Knitting
I found a tempting pattern for fingerless mitts with a hidden pocket (for hand warmers!!!) on Ravelry called Dueling Gradients. This Kauni yarn that I’ve been itching to try out should work great. The two balls actually have the same colors in them; the way the ball is wound affects the appearance. Sunday I cast on and started playing with the yarns and the pattern.
Warp
Monday I wound off the warp for the dishtowels that I want to weave. Ugh. It is done.
Tree Cookies
Tuesday I taught a Project Learning Tree workshop for teachers in the local school district. I had to sand down this 2 foot wide tree cookie for the teachers to use in one of their activities. Yikes. That was a lot more work than I expected,  but look at those tree rings! This tree was 24 years old when it was cut down.
Happiness
Wednesday I headed to a hospital up north for pulmonary function testing. It’s official now; I don’t breathe as well now as I did a year ago. It’s almost a relief to get closer to the diagnosis: I really am out of breath (and not just out of shape!)  On the way out of the hospital I bought this great figurine in the gift shop.
Cat in yarn shop
and of course I visited another yarn shop. This time I went to Mew Mew’s Yarn Shop, and here is Mew Mew herself. How fun is that! She woke up from her nap while I was there and demanded attention. Mew Mew (and some new fabulous yarn) was just what I needed.
Cat
Thursday I spent the afternoon getting the warp onto the loom with some cat assistance. This is called warping because you descend into a time warp that sucks dry the entire afternoon and leaves you blinking and tied in knots before it is over. Tedious and stressful at the same time. Cat assistance is not appreciated! 
Cat outside
How sad for MacKenzie.
Stitch Markers
Today I finished warping the loom and then made these wickedly awesome stitch markers from some beads I bought at last year’s Interweave Yarn Fest. Wait! I did manage to finish something this week. The stitch markers are actual FOs!!

This evening I finished a fingerless (production knitting) mitt that I started last week and cast on another pair of socks. I now have four knitting projects in progress and a warped loom that I can start weaving on next week. Whew! There’s a lot going on.

Stay tuned for next week. I’m sure I’ll have something done by then. 🙂

 

 

 

 

 

Off My Wheel: Snowfling Yarn

I am still fired up with creative energy. I have been knitting mitts like crazy (boring… I keep making the same mitt pattern over and over in different color yarns. I’ll post a picture when I get a stack of them done!) and got the warp all wound for the dishtowels that I want to weave (yeah – that is another basically boring picture so I’ll just skip post it too…) and even pulled the loom out. I had to move the (sad, neglected and agitated) spinning wheel to get to the loom, and it was hard to not notice that the bobbin on the wheel was half full. I’d started spinning this yarn in early November but put it away when Christmas makes got in the way. The fiber is pretty cool; it is from one giant batt that I had bought last year at the Interweave Yarn Fest. No wonder that wheel is cranky! The batt was his birthday present and I never took the time to finish spinning it.

I sat down yesterday and finished spinning and plying the fiber from the batt. It made two big skeins of worsted weight yarn.

Skeins of yarn
Looking good!! This yarn is pretty hardy – the fiber is a little on the coarse side. The upper skein is a little more orange then the lower one, but they both have a lot of character.
Yarn
See what I mean. I just love the play of the different colors in the final yarn.

I decided that it is a good yarn for outerwear. Since I just froze my fingers while shoveling snow after the last storm (The Snowpacolypse) I am really focused on warm mittens and mitts for my hands. Last week I bought several mitten/mitt patterns on Ravelry, and looking at this yarn I decided that it wanted to become Snowfling MItts. Seriously, that happy color would make rocking snowflakes against a dark background!! Off to dig in the yarn stash I went.

I found three different colors of grey homespun yarn that would work for the project. Here they are:

Charcoal and colored yarns
Contender #1. A nice charcoal yarn made from a sheep named Misty. It is a pretty good match in size but not as crispy a yarn as the colored one.
Grey and colored yarns
This light grey yarn is extremely soft and squishy. It is from the last fleece of a special sheep named Lily. I love the color, but it won’t work for the background against the bright yarn. There is a big difference in the feel of the yarns too.
Black and colored yarn
Bingo! This is it. This black yarn is pretty crisp and hardy feeling and is almost the same weight as the colored yarn. The sheep was the Grand Champion at the Western National Stock Show one year. Beautiful color, long locks of wool, but not as soft a fleece as was expected. It is, however, the exact match to this colorful yarn. 

I just put the spinning wheel away. Today he had lots and lots of exercise. Tomorrow I will wash the new yarn (maybe it will soften up a little?) and get the loom pulled out. Time to warp! Hopefully I’ll get the loom ready for weaving before that yarn is done drying.

 

When the going gets tough, the tough get… knitting!

This is it. I’m pretty sure that I am back. Right after Christmas I got sick with the flu, one thing led to another, and I was taken off the drugs that I take to treat my systemic sclerosis (scleroderma). Yep. My autoimmune condition flared of course. Two weeks ago I was finally cleared to start my immunosuppressant drugs again.

Hello energy! Wow. This week a surge of creativity arrived. I was up and pulling together projects right and left while cleaning house (and putting away the Christmas decorations). About freaking time, huh. My poor yarn stash had started to despair. The loom was considering contacting an adoption agency (that darn spinning wheel put it up to it. He has always been a trouble maker…). Even the car was becoming depressed.

My energy level has come up just in time. Three weeks ago my internist sat down with me and gave me some bad news: I have developed symptoms that suggest that my lungs are now under attack and becoming scarred. I kind of expected it as I have been having shortness of breath episodes, but still it isn’t a good development. I made an appointment with the rheumatologist. Yesterday I saw him, he decided to increase my drug dosage, and he also ordered lung testing for next week. When I came out the door from the clinic the wind was blowing, the sun was shining, and I was happy to be alive. No matter what happens next week, this week I am full of energy and feeling pretty good. Got to love these drugs!!

So I decided to not go right home. I went shopping!! Hello! The rheumatologist is located in a city north of Denver near a major yarn store, Shuttles, Spindles and Skeins in Boulder, Colorado. I have needs. The loom is making threats…

Home woven dishtowels
At Christmas my cousin admired my dishtowels. I want a couple more of the white/color checked towels, and she wants the towels with no white. Time to warp the loom, but I am out of the white and light blue cotton. There. That is a good enough reason to go to the yarn (and weaving) store. 🙂

I found the cotton that I needed pretty quickly. As I tried to walk to the checkout counter I happened to see the Dream Club kits…

January Dream Club
The January Dream Club kit had this dreamy cashmere blend fingering yarn and a pattern to make cute mitts and a head scarf. The pattern is called Blue Jean Boheme (by Kalurah Hudson) and while I’m not wild about the scarf, I really like the mitts. I bet I can get two pairs of mitts out of this yarn. Maybe a pair of mitts and a pair of bed socks…

While I was thinking about the bed socks the happy colors of the February Dream Club kit jumped out at me.

February Dream Club
Cashmere blend slippers in the happiest colors ever! This is the February Dream Club kit and the pattern that comes with it is called Pleasant Pheasant Slippers by Lara Neel. Say that fast three times! The yarn is worsted weight and called Classy with Cashmere.

I don’t know how those kits jumped into my arms. It just happened. Clutching the cones of cotton for the dishtowels and the bagged kits I managed to get up to the check out counter and found…

Isn't that the truth!
Isn’t that the truth!

Okay, I did find some more yarn to add to the pile, but I’m going to save it for a future post. I piled back into the car with all of my happy finds and headed south back towards home through some of the strongest wind in recent memory. Seriously, I was dodging tumbleweeds (while on an elevated overpass!) and playing chicken with wobbly tractor trailer trucks as I raced along through clouds of dust and howling 60 mph wind. It perfectly matched my mood of recklessly joyous living.

My last stop on the way home was at a jewelry store where I bought a new teal colored bead for my Pandora bracelet.

Bracelet
Teal is the color for scleroderma awareness ribbons. This is my own personal “Be Brave” bracelet.

I am rocking the knitting tonight wearing my bracelet. This weekend I will get the warp wound for the dishtowels and the loom will get warped up early next week. You know I’ll be wearing the bracelet when I go for the pulmonary function testing next week.

I am tough. I knit!!

Knitting the Snowpocalypse

I live in a city just east of Denver, Colorado. It snows here. You’d expect that we would all be used to it by now, but each time there is a major storm predicted you’d think it was the end of the world. The grocery store is mobbed. Gasoline sells out at the gas station. There are constant warnings and updates in the media, and a bright red “winter storm warning” message begins to scroll across the bottom of the television screen. Snow trucks begin to roll before the first flake even flies. It is particularly bad when the winter storm is predicted to unfold over several days and double digit snow is expected.

It is the Snowpocalypse!!!

OK, I did go to the grocery store to make sure I had milk and stuff for several days of meals. I filled the car with gas. I went to the yarn store. Hello. I might be cut off for days! I mean, it is the SNOWPOCALYPSE!!!

Yarn
Woohoo! Look at this absolutely beautiful Malibrigo Rios yarn. I am so happy with the last sweater that I made that I decided to make another top-down sweater. Besides, it is the Snowpocalypse, so I probably will need the additional woolly layer to survive while digging myself out of the snow drift encrusted house later…
Sweater start
I picked the pattern Mountain High by Heidi Kirrmaier for my sweater. Isn’t this color nice? It is called Jupiter and reminds me of the planet each time I pick up my needles to knit. I cast on late last week so that I would have something started when the snow arrived Saturday. Here’s what it looked like by Monday morning when we had (an underwhelming) couple of inches on the ground.

The predicted snow storm was actually a two-punch affair; the weekend snow was just the warm-up for the main event. Monday afternoon the snow started in earnest and once the wind picked up it began to drift. Schools were closed, most of my neighbors stayed home from work, and there was almost no traffic on the roads. Lovely. Seriously, it was lovely. I settled down and power knitted for a couple of days with breaks to forage for food (yep. I am seriously recovering from the flu and my appetite has come back was a vengence!) and snow shoveling outings. This morning the sun was out again and I got the last bit of shoveling down.

Snow
It’s a winter wonderland! It isn’t so obvious in the picture, but there is over a foot of snow here and a drift that was almost 2 feet deep lurked at my front door.
Sweater in progress
Look how much of the sweater is now done! Looking good! Here are the project notes on Ravelry.

I am now almost 2 inches below the armholes and it is started to look like a sweater. The yarn feels just wonderful. I am so happy to have so much progress after just a week.

A friend just sent me a message: there is another snow storm predicted for early next week.

Woohoo! Maybe I should head to the knitting store and stock up again.

 

 

 

Bad Start, 2016 (but I made a great sweater anyway. Ha!)

I know that I kind of did this to myself. I was really pushing things as I got everything baked, stitched, knitted, wrapped, mailed and cleaned for Christmas. It was wonderful. My family was all here on the big day, the dinner was perfect, and it was even snowing lightly making it a true White Christmas. A wonderful, wonderful day.

I was just exhausted afterwards.

Still, I made some after-Christmas plans. I wrote out some ideas for the end-of-the-year blog post and made a list of projects to tackle in the coming weeks and months. Great stuff: weaving, spinning and quilting made the list along with the usual plethora of knitting items.

Cat Face
No New Year’s for us. Mom got sick.

The Monday after Christmas I woke up sick. Influenza!! I had had the vaccine, but I knew that it was unlikely that I would get the full benefit because of my immuno-suppressant drugs. By New Year’s Day I literally couldn’t get out of bed. The next day I dragged into the after-hours clinic and was sent home with antibiotics and some serious cough medicine. Thus a cascade of severe unhappiness was launched. Here’s the short version: bronchitis; removal from immuno-suppressant drugs; allergic reaction to the first antibiotics; more antibiotics; a full rebellion by my digestive system; low blood pressure; dizzy, dizzy, and more dizzy; help: I can’t even manage to knit; a flare of my systemic sclerosis; and a complete helping of why can’t I breathe right yet??? There. That was the whole month!! In fact, it is still going, but I am definitely on the mend.

Take home lesson: it is possible to survive on yogurt, cranberry juice and Christmas cookies. Maybe I should write this up as a new fad diet. 🙂 It is also good to have a pile of books waiting to be read. An emergency stash of chocolate is a given, right? Oh yeah, one more thing: GET YOUR FLU SHOT, PEOPLE!!

Two weeks ago I pulled out my partially completed Daelyn Sweater (by Isabell Kraemer) and got started knitting on it again between naps. Last week I finally finished it. Oh, my goodness. What a wonderful sweater. It kind of looks like a sweatshirt…

Daelyn Sweater
See what I mean? The ultimate comfy weekend sweater. This baby is knit from the top down and there isn’t a seam anywhere in it. I decided to knit the XL size (43.75 inches) so that I would have at least 6 inches of positive ease; because of the garter stitch shaping it hangs really nicely and is actually kind of flattering. This view of the sweater is pretty boxy looking, so I decided to try to get a selfie…
Sweater front
Do you know how hard that is? Ugh! Still, this gives you a better idea of how the sweater actually hangs. Once it is on it doesn’t look wide and boxy anymore because of the garter stitch side panels. My swollen fingers are due to the systemic sclerosis flare. I want my drugs back!!
Raglan Sleeve
and just check out the raglan sleeve and the back view! The garter stitch in the back  makes it really comfy and stretchy. The back of the sweater is a little longer due to short rows shaping which also helps make it hang nicely over my rear end. 🙂
Cat chomping yarn.
Did you notice the cat hair on the sweater? Yep. That’s a thing as cat help and yarn chomping happened fairly frequently as I knitted… MacKenzie purrs and kneads like a madman (madkitty) in these sweater attacks so it is hard to heartlessly chase him off. I think that he especially liked the Brooklyn Tweed Shelter yarn that I used.

Shelter Yarn

I have to give a shout out to this yarn. You almost have to work with this stuff to believe it; it is soft, squishy and very light weight. My finished sweater is soft, warm, comfy, looks and hangs like a bulky sweater but weighs very little. It is almost a shock when I lift it to put it on. There are little bits of veggie matter in the yarn, but I think that is because it hasn’t been over processed. It was fairly easy to pull them out while I worked.

When I got ready to knit my sleeves I began to panic about running out of yarn. I ordered two more skeins online that were from another dye lot. I blended the new yarn in by knitting every other row for 8 rows (it did happen on the sleeves..) and you absolutely can’t see the change in yarn. I could have just skipped the blending. How’s that for quality control! Here are the Ravelry notes for my project if you want more info.

So, here it is whole month late but I am starting to think about my new projects for the year. Lots to do. You weren’t very nice to me at the start, 2016, but let’s see what we can get going now. Behave yourself!!

 

 

Say Hello to my Little Joker…

Actually this is the second The Joker and the Thief shawl by Melanie Berg that I’ve knitted. When I picked the yarn to make the shawl I struggled with the color choices and ended up putting together two color combinations. The first shawl was navy with a bright fushia/gold gradient (that one is mine, mine, mine and has already seen a lot of wear…), and the second one was interesting but probably not the right colors for me. That’s cool. It is Christmas time and I know exactly who I am going to gift this shawl to. I knitted on it like crazy over the last week and tomorrow it will begin winging its way to its new home.

Cat on shawl
What! This Joker wasn’t made for me??

To give MacKenzie credit it was kind of easy for him to get confused about ownership concerning this shawl since he spent most of the time I was knitting it lying on my legs with it draped over him. Such a sweet boy… (Actually not. He gets pretty grumpy if he doesn’t get his way so I mostly go along with his requests. Mostly. Did I mention that he is a big cat?)

Gathered shawl
This is what the shawl fabric looked like before blocking. Yikes! Gathers and cat fur…
Shawl close up
After blocking the fabric opened up and the criss-cross stitch became more showy.
Shawl
and here is the finished product!! I’m pretty sure this shawl will be happy in its new home.

I used a Frabjous Fibers Cheshire Cat gradient pack for the jewel tone colors and added the burgundy color from the stash. It was a little intense settling on the colors by I am happy with the end product. Here all the details on Ravelry.

Almost ready for Christmas. Woohoo! Bring it on, Santa!

 

Midnight Story

You all know that I am the Midnight Knitter; some of my best work gets done between midnight and 1am. The house is peaceful, the world (and the cats) are asleep and I descend into the calming meditation of smooth knitting while watching the late night talk shows.

So last night I thought it was really nice when Yellow Boy cuddled against my head on the back of the knitting chair while MacKenzie was asleep on my legs. He never does that…

Cat
He was so cute I snapped a picture of him. Look at the sweet face…
Cat
MacKenzie: Wait…what is that smell…
Cat face
Ugh! Not again!! You know what this means…
Wet cat
Bath time!

Yep, while the world was peacefully asleep I had to give this cat (and his poopy bottom) a bath at 1am this morning. It was just horrible. There were shrieking wails at horrific volumes. MacKenzie, the cat not in the sink, cried too as he paced the counters trying to intervene. Crashing, clawing and hissing happened. I got bit (not badly) and there was also a scratch. By the time it was over there was a lot of water on the floor and we were all just exhausted. Strangely, Yellow Boy doesn’t mind the blow dryer too much, so I was able to get him semi-dry before he got cold.

Toy mouse in the water bowl.
This boy recovers quickly. I know that he played overnight because this is what I found in the water bowl this morning.

The trouble here is that Yellow Boy is very furry with lots of “feathers” on his rear end. He has a tiny, but very furry, tail that looks like a bunny rabbit’s; he can’t lift his tail out of the way. He eats my plants and every bug and spider that he can catch; sometimes he has litter box accidents that create these horrific cat-bath events. I’m on immunosuppressants and really can’t risk scratches and bites anymore. I decided to take action!

Clippers
Behold the cat trap that I plugged in by his food bowl.
Clipped Cat
and here he is after getting trapped and clipped: Yellow Boy with all of his butt feathers shaved off and a bob-tail cut. This went a lot better than the bath!
Buddy cats
The traumatized boys even cuddled together this afternoon…
Sleeping cat
and hopefully we will all sleep well tonight. Sweet dreams little guy. 🙂 

Cats, Mitts, and Baby Booties

The weather continues to be cold here. It is too cold (and snowy) for the cats to go outside so they have been hanging out upstairs on my bed. OK, the truth is that these two boys aren’t really the best of friends. Yellow Boy (AKA the PuffMuffin) steals all of MacKenzie’s kitty treats and hogs the toys. MacKenzie beats up Yellow Boy when he’s feeling grumpy. When he is cold and can’t go outside he is grumpy a lot. Life is tough for Yellow Boy on snowy days… And yet, here they are huddled together on the bed looking miserable together…

Cold Cats
Only these two would sleep back-to-back trying to stay warm. That little red feather comforter just isn’t cutting it anymore I guess…
Happy Cat
So I went shopping for a new warm throw to put on the bed for them. Instant hit!! Can you feel the purr through the screen? 

Happy (and warm) cats means that I got lots of knitting done without them trying to get warm laying on my legs and shedding clouds of fur. Here’s the week’s accomplishments:

Finished Mitts.
What a shock: I made another pair of the Sugared Maple Mitts (by Melissa Schaschwary ) in the last skein of Zen Yarn Garden Serenity DK. I think that these may be my favorite. They are mine, mine, all mine!! Here are the Ravelry notes.
Mitt
I also made another pair of the cable and rib mitts with the thumb moved over so that the cable would stay parked on top of the hand. Since my sister suggested the change these are now Selma’s Mitts; I made the ribbing at the top and the bottom of this pair a little longer. I think that these are cute: I’ll have to see if I can talk a friend into taking a picture of them on my hand. They are really comfy and I think I’ll write up the pattern to use with the alpaca yarn from Alta Vida Alpacas. This yarn is Malabrigo Rios in the colorway Zarzamora.
Baby Booties
I also got an order for baby booties this week. The new mother requested that they be black (!!!) so that is what I did. The lace doesn’t show as well as it would in a light colored set of booties, but they are still soft, squishy and should work. Look!! Almost all of the snow has melted away because today was windy and warmer. The cats came out to run around while I was taking these photos. Everyone is happy again. This pattern is our family pattern from days of yore but can also be found on Ravelry. The yarn is Anzula Squishy.

I think that I have worked my way through the immediate urge to make mitts. I sent a RSVP for the Scleroderma Holiday Party today and it dawned on me that perhaps I should finish up on the Christmas presents. I have knitting (a shawl and a hat) and some quilting to get finished.

And cookies to bake…

And the decorations to put out…

And I will never hear the end of it if those cats don’t get a Christmas tree to play in…

Good thing I bought them a nice cuddly blanket for the bed. 🙂