There was a huge flock of blackbirds that hung out in the backyard this week; there were so many that the CoalBear was a little worried about going outside. The days are getting colder and there are dead leaves in the catio for Mateo (AKA the CoalBear) to chase. The grasshoppers are all gone, and the squirrels are stealing food from the birdfeeder and storing it in the planters on the deck. Those squirrels are really getting out of control: one of them now barks at us from the garage roof, hanging off the rain gutter, and when that happens, we’re too scared to go outside. Bad squirrel, bad!!
Look at what’s happened to our tree!!! It is a kind of funny colored…
It was sort of a busy week. The Mother of Cats had two appointments and left us alone for hours. Then she was busy most of the rest of the week finishing up knitting the sweater that she has been working on. I love this sweater! It is fun to sleep on, and chasing the yarn is great. The Mother of Cats, however, was not very good about sharing the sweater, and then she took it off the needles, tried it on, and then packed it away on a shelf where I can’t reach it. Why does she do these things?
Today she blocked the sweater, and it is covered up with towels so I can’t lick the wool which is one of my very favorite things to do. As soon as it comes out from under the towels, however, I will have my way with it!!!!
In the meantime, the Mother of Cats is back to working on her blanket that was packed away for months and months and months. Look at how cool this blanket will be!
The Mother of Cats says that this is the next big project that is getting done.
So, that was kind of the whole week: abandoned for hours, knitting, and crazy animals that make going outside kind of scary. I’m going to go pester the Mother of Cats for some extra tuna and then I’m going to go take a nap.
Mateo: I’ll hang out with the Mother of Cats in the indoor garden while Hannah’s asleep.
This is Hannah, signing off.
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Notes from the Mother of Cats:
The sweater is La Prairie by Joji Locatelli. This was a challenging knit with lots of elements to juggle at the same time: a charted pattern, color changes of yarn, and lots and lots of bobbles!! I had to make modifications to the sleeves as I worked to conserve some of the yarn colors, and I still may need to rip back the cuffs and knit some more to make the sleeves longer; I’ll know the sleeve length better after blocking is done. This is absolutely an individualized knit.
All my sweaters are safely put away in plastic lock-top bins. Sorry, Hannah.
The blanket is the Nectar Blanket by Ysolda Teague. It keeps growing on me, and I’m now thinking about hunting around in lace books to look at different options for the edging. The original pattern calls for a garter stitch edging, and I keep thinking that I need some more lace… I may need more yarn, too…
The appointments were to get my pulmonary function test done, and then a follow-up appointment with the pulmonologist. I have gained back more lung volume, and he is really happy with my progress.
I took my little purse-sized emotional support chicken with me to the testing appointment. Then we went to the grocery store and Starbucks.
Do you see all this yarny goodness that I’m cuddled up with?
The Mother of Cats has taken down the sweater that was in time out (I wish that Mateo was in time out… he has been annoying all day!!) and started knitting on it again. She was a little worried about coming back to a project after so many months, but it turned out to be kind of easy for her because she had made so many notes on the pattern and even made a big knitting aid to help her keep track of the yarn colors, the pattern, and the decreases on the sleeves.
All the numbers refer to the chart rows for the pattern. The dark boxes are the decrease rows, and the numbers to left side are the yarn colors. Whew! It’s enough to give me a headache!! Maybe some tuna will help…
Anyway, she spent the week knitting away on the first sleeve and got it finished in the middle of the week. Here’s what it looks like:
Pretty cool sleeve, right? The pattern goes down the outside of the sleeve, and the Mother of Cats is soooo happy that she doesn’t have to knit too many bobbles.
She’s now working on the second sleeve and really worried about running out of one of the yarn colors. She keeps weighing the ball of yarn and saying things that I think are inappropriate for kitty ears under her breath. Poor Mother of Cats. I never stress. Well, I only stress a little. Okay, I am in the closet for hours every time a stranger comes to the door, but that is just good sense, right?
The worries about the yarn are pretty bad, so I’ve been hanging out with the Mother of Cats while she knits on the second sleeve.
Anyways, the sweater is coming along well, and I think that it is one of the comfiest knits that she has made in a while. I just love taking naps on it!! Isn’t the color nice? It really makes my coat shine.
This is Hannah, signing off.
>^..^<
Notes from the Mother of Cats: That sweater is La Prairie by Joji Locatelli. I’m now in a rush to get it done before the first snow of the season. Next week is going to stay warm, so maybe I’ll pull this off!
After a phone call and then a few email exchanges with my cardiologist it was decided that I needed to wear a heart monitor for the next 30 days to rule out atrial fibrillation (AFib); evidently that is a systemic sclerosis thing, and I’m high risk to develop it because of other things going on with my heart. I did not see this coming, but it absolutely matches my symptoms.
Look at this heart monitor!!
That heart monitor is just fabulous!! The whole thing is taped on, I can wear it in the shower, and there are no leads to worry about coming loose. The monitor is blue toothed to a phone that I need to carry at all times, and it is transmitting to both the company that owns the monitor and my doctor. If I have another event while wearing it, I can send a message immediately to my doctor on the phone. Isn’t this technology fabulous? Of course, nothing has happened while I’ve been wearing the monitor, but I still have 28 days to go…
Mateo: I am not annoying!!! Hannah should be the one in time out because… hold on… I’ll think of something… she hogs all the tuna!
It has been quite a week. Something happened that put me into a snit that made me think about priorities all week long. Actually, several things are happening all at once and it has taken me days to sort things out. Let’s start with the snit, okay?
These are the chicken sisters, and even though they are really cute, they are the focal point of the snit that has made me rethink my priorities.
I started making emotional support chickens to give to people who needed… well… emotional support. People who are dealing with grief, or anxiety, or an uncertain future, or struggling with medical challenges. I want to send something to people like me who are dealing with something significant and life-altering that is also mostly invisible to other people. The chicken says (Ba-BOK!!!) I see you… I am here for you… give me a hug. That is the mission. It falls under the overarching mission of Knit Out the Yarn Stash Before I Die. Hey, I have a lot of yarn, so there is a sense of urgency there for me.
Well, the day I took a chicken to my knitting group seeking to enroll others to knit chickens things kind of backfired. As in, people begged me to make them chickens. Ugh. I couldn’t say no, because all of these ladies are making/giving things for others in the same circumstances as the people I gift the chickens to. I signed on to knit 5 chickens with the understanding that each chicken would require a cash donation to Frayed Knots. I knit some chickens, posted the pictures, and it was a chicken free-for-all as people reserved the chicken that they wanted.
Here they are, the first chickens looking for a new home.
Four chickens were grabbed right away. Then the problem arrived. One of the members of the board wanted the little raspberry and grey chickens, even though they were already adopted out. The words “those chickens are gone” did not work. She absolutely had to have those chickens. It was a close thing, but I did have enough yarn left over to make the two new chickens.
When I sent her the pictures of the finished chickens and told her they were done she was greatly disappointed that I hadn’t also made a black chicken that we had mentioned while she was debating her options. (Listen, she decided on the two chickens instead of that black hen, so this was a shock!) I told her that I didn’t have the yarn to make that chicken in the stash. She told me that she would buy the yarn. I was like… NO!!! Please do not buy me any yarn!
Overarching mission: Knit Out the Yarn Stash Before I Die
Which has kind of been on my mind since my heart is kind of acting up right now. I am having sudden attacks of extreme breathlessness with chest pressure and dizziness. My oxygen levels seem to be okay, but my Fitbit has been sending me alarms when it happens. My fatigue has gotten much worse and it kind of hurts to breath sometimes.
The really crazy Fitbit shot with lots of peaks happened when I tried to knit a chemo hat on my little knitting machine. I mean, making hats while trying to control the cats is stressful enough, but the constant Fitbit alerts are just piling on at this point!
See the quality help that I’m getting while making the hats?
I seem to do much better if I wear oxygen while working with the machines, and I get fewer alerts while working on the smaller knitting machine making fingerless mitts.
Cute fingerless mitts, right?
So, it was a week of internal conflict. The lady who wants a black chicken is still not happy. My heart is not happy. My yarn stash is not shrinking, and somehow the joy of knitting chickens is gone when I have to make them in the exact colors that other people want. It is a chore when I don’t get to be creative, especially when I know that the chicken is going to someone who just wants a chicken, as opposed to someone who needs a chicken.
Hannah: On Friday the Mother of Cats pulled herself together, reset her priorities, and took some action!
Friday morning, I woke up, made my latte, sat outside with the cats, and decided to push the tiller over and return to a course of true north. I will remember my overarching mission statement, and I will do the things that help other people like me: people with chronic conditions that are isolating and mostly invisible to others. I will spend my time doing the things that feed my own creative spirit and my need for a sense of purpose.
I emailed my rheumatologist to ask if she would like fingerless mitts to give to other rheumatology patients. The answer came back in less than an hour: Yes, please!!!! I have my purpose again, and knitting out the yarn stash is back in business.
I emailed my cardiologist to let him know what was happening and attached the Fitbit pictures.
I took down a sweater (La Prairie) that has been languishing for months and started in on finishing the first sleeve. Gosh, it is going to be cute. Time to knit for me again!
I packed up the chickens to deliver to Frayed Knots. Those chickens are the last ones that I will knit for people who want chickens.
Saturday, I handed the chickens over to the head of Frayed Knots and asked her to please explain to the lady who desperately needs a black chicken that I’m done knitting them. The words I used were, “I’m not in the chicken knitting business, I’m in the emotional support business.”
I then sat with another member of the group and helped her knit her way through her first chicken. Suddenly, two other people wanted to learn. Yay! I am there for them!! Eventually, I am going to get some chickens into infusion centers for the patients!!
I have two little bracelets on my wrist with the Fitbit.
What was it that helped me pull things together Friday morning while drinking my morning latte? Those two little bracelets on my wrist in scleroderma teal. The little silver spoon was given to me by another patient, and it symbolizes the balancing act scleroderma people go through to manage our fatigue. We are “spoonies”. I need to remember to be ruthless about managing my own energy and resources. The teal beaded bracelet has a silver strip that says, “Remember Who the Fuck You Are“. Yes. I need to remember to not let other people run me over with their needs, because… limited resources. I need to set my own priorities with my limitations and needs in mind. I also need to remember to be brave, to face down the monsters, and to let my doctors know when new symptoms appear.
I’m basking in the lights of the new plant shelves!
The days out on the catio are getting a little cooler now, and there are leaves falling off the trees. Mateo really likes to chase the leaves! And the bugs. Okay… he chases everything that moves, basically… The squirrels are waaay more busy than usual, and I haven’t seen a baby bunny for weeks and weeks. There are lots of birds at the feeder that are kind of new, and sometimes there are tons of birds in the trees. The Mother of Cats says that the birds are flocking, and that there are changes coming.
Do you see the box that I am standing on? It was pretty long and a little heavy.
The Mother of Cats pushed that long box up the stairs and then she got out some tools. Yay! I love to help out with projects!!!
Look at all of the stuff that was in the box!
It took her a little while, but the Mother of Cats put all of those pieces together to make some shelves with lights. Oh. That’s kind of cool. I really like sleeping under lights like this, and shelves are always fun!
Then the Mother of Cats brought in all of the plants from the deck to come live under the lights in the indoor garden and on these new shelves. Look at what happened!!! There is no more room for me on the shelves! What was the Mother of Cats thinking of?
She brought in some of the plants from the deck and put them on my shelves!!!
After she brought in the first plants, she started messing around in the indoor garden so that she could make even more room for plants. Then the really big lavender plants came inside along with all the rest of the rose plants.
Now almost all of the plants that were living on the deck are now in the knitting room with the Mother of Cats and me. I love the plants!! Some of them are starting to put out new buds, more roses and lavender blooms are on the way, and the room smells kind of nice. Pretty cool, right? The new shelves even have a bar to hang plants from, there is a timer for the lights, and there is a shelf to put all of the knitting project boxes on the top. We are ready for winter now!!!
This week the Mother of Cats and I sat by the lights, smelled the lavender, and sewed up all of the chickens that she had knitted in September. So much fun… I like to chase the yarn while the Mother of Cats is sewing. This is what the finished chickens look like:
Didn’t I do a good job helping out? All of these chickens will go to their new homes this week. Bye chickens! It was nice to know you!!
Time for me to catch another nap.
This is Hannah, signing off.
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Note from the Mother of Cats: the lavender plants aren’t hardy enough to survive a Colorado winter, so indoors they came! Yay, lighted shelving!! These came from Amazon.
Yarn, Books & Roses 